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[ Pull the trigger...xXxSeptember 24th at 3:33pm]
Yesterday at 3:35 pm, I found out that my mother has breast cancer.
Blow

[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 26th at 11:11am]
The truth, is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath, I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt. ~Taking Back Sunday

Life Is A Bitch

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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 25th at 3:52pm]
[ mood | content ]

Today has been an okay day I suppose....Blah..

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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 24th at 7:34pm]
[ mood | angry ]

I think that my heart has exploded.

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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 24th at 7:28pm]
An ounce of pain slides down my wrist.
Bright red and angry when I look in the mirror.
The blade is on the floor.
I hated the things that you said.
I never wanted it to hurt more than it should.
Blow

[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 24th at 7:20pm]
Sorry but uhh...FUCK it.

Kathy..You can go fuck your self now. I hate you. I hate Leslie, Stephen Kyle, you effing boyfriend David. I hate everything you have told me. Would you like to know why? Because they were all lies. Yes. They most certainly were. I hope that you realize that everyone else hates your back stabbing self. You are nothing to me now. NOTHING. You have filled me with so much pain when I saw you yell at my father. There is nothing that could make me cry besides that. And boy did you succeed. Yea. I did cry. Yes. You made me cry. I fucking admit it you whore.
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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 24th at 11:58am]
Whoa..I actually got to sleep last nite. I went to bed around 5:30 a.m. but it was worth it. I have so much I have to do when I get home. I have to wash clothes, change the sheets on my bed, dust my room, and vaccuum....argh...
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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 23rd at 10:37pm]
We just got back from the mall and guess what? I got my cartlige pierced and it hurts just a little bit. I am so ummm...I don't really know but when I find out I will let you know. Yea.. That's about how it goes. I am about ready to go to sleep. My legs hurt from walking around the mall. My dad wanted a necklace so we went and got him one. Yes, all of us. Brothers and all. I actually had a fun time. My hair is still in the pigtails and I feel so crummy since I have not taken a bath since Friday morning...EWEWWW! I feel like I am going to fall out of the chair but you know what...?...I don't care. I have had a fun time this weekend and I hope that it is like this every weekend we come over here. I wish I could stay just a little bit longer than tomorrow.

Strawberry Kiss
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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 23rd at 3:14pm]
I am still at my dad's house right now and I am having so much fun!

*sings in fat girl tone* I don't want to grow up I'm a Toys-R-Us kid!
Blow

[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 22nd at 7:45pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

The smoke billows in-between my fingertips.
A look in the eyes and you have slipped off the covers.
All the things, imperfections; all that I try to hide suddenly become un-covered.
Nothing is as it seems.
The flame burns high and the glow lights my face.
You warmth fills my body and you touch my back.
Falling.
Deception.

Blow

[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 22nd at 12:37pm]
[ mood | cold ]

I can't wait to go to my father's house tonite! I don't know how many times I have posted that in here but I am sure that it is annoying. I have that fever again in my arms this time. I think that something is wrong but I am not sure. I think that I need to go to the doctor but no one will take me. *achoo* Sneeze...no not really but ya know what...I'm just being honest. LMFAO!

I touch your hand with 3 seconds of bliss
all the world tumbles down around me
I only want to be yours forever
look into my eyes and tell me the same
kiss me like you want me
hold me like you care
be my one and only
because i want you to be there
i want to be with you
I don't want to be like this
I want you to take my breath away
with your sweetest kiss
you see into my heart
you broke the case
your love is so complex
like the most intricate of lace

-Madison

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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 22nd at 10:52am]
[ mood | excited ]

I am so ready to go to my dads house. I jst want to get away. i want that someone to hold me all night long and never let go.

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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 22nd at 9:19am]
I get to go to my dad's house tonite! I can't wait!!
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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 21st at 2:12pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Nothing much is going on. I finished my work in 4th period and guess what?.....No more work! Can you believe it? I can't I am so ready to go home and go to sleep so that tomorrow can come so that I can go to my dad's house. I can't wait. Two and a half days of bliss! I am so happy that it is almost Friday!! Yay!! I think what I am going to do when I go home is get my things packed for this weekend and then do my home work and then I guess I'll get a shower and go to bed. I don't know what is wrong with me but I have been waking up starving and normally I am not hungry when I wake up in the morning. I just hope I'm not what I'm thinking I am. I couldn't be. There is no possible way. I can't even think that it could possibly be that. I know that it isn't. I just want to be with him. I really do. I want him to hold me like he did last time. I want him to kiss me like he did last time. I just want everything of the sort all of the time...

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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 20th at 9:53am]
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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 20th at 9:52am]
How to make a gunpowdermouth
Ingredients:

3 parts competetiveness

5 parts silliness

1 part energy
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little fitness if desired!
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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 20th at 7:23am]
I thought aout him all nite. I want him to hold me. The more I think about it the more anxious I become for Friday. Two weeks is too long to wait to see someone. I day dream about him all day...GOD..I can't stand it....I hate waiting..I tried calling last nite but I guess he was asleep. Well..I <3 you!
Blow

[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 19th at 10:59am]
Depressed really but...I don't know. My eyes burn and I have to stay after school today. I just want to go home. I want to go to my dad's house right now... *looks dazed and confused*
I wonder what is for lunch...That is where I am supposed to be but ya know what?...I don't feel like it. I just want to go home. I want to be with him. I miss him. i want to call him on the phone. But...I have no phone to use right now...Well...
Blow

[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 16th at 1:49pm]
[ mood | creative ]

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[ Pull the trigger...xXxOctober 16th at 11:42am]
[ mood | depressed ]

I want you to love me.
I want you to hold me.
I want to feel your hands on my face.
I want you to kiss me.
I want to be your everything.
I want you to care about me.
I want you to let me know you care.
I want to know that I am the only one.
I want to be with you forever.
I want to take things slow.
I want to look in your eyes and see more than nothing.
I want you to look in me and see something beautiful.
I want to let you know that I care, too.
I want to feel your firey embrace.
I want you to love me for me.
I want to be beautiful.
I want you to think that I am beautiful.
I love the way your eyes glow when you talk to me.
I love the way you breathe on my neck.
I love the way you kiss me.
i want you to meant it.
Please tell me you mean it.
Please tell me that you honestly care about how I feel.
I know that you can see it.
You have to.
I don't know how you can't.
Yes, I am that obvious.
I don't try to be.
I just want you to love me.

Blow

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